Friday, April 4, 2008

What a week...

...a very loooong week and I'm ready for it to just be over! I would have posted about it sooner, but other things happened and then I just wanted to wait til I had all the details. I'm only posting about it because it happened, and I don't want it to go unmentioned.

Last Sunday night Josiah took me into the E.R. with what seemed to be some sort of major allergic reaction. I had puked my brains out and while doing so, I noticed my face was getting all numb-like. My tongue felt like it was swelling, I was sweating profusely and my heart was racing. After I felt like I was done puking, I sat up on the toilet and realized my arms and legs were now bright red, like I'd spent the day in the sun, and they were somewhat puffy. I also began shivering uncontrollably. I really had no clue what was going on. I'd never experienced this sort of thing previously. It all just seemed too weird so we decided not to just sleep on it.

The doctor there was pretty baffled at my symptoms. I've never been allergic to anything. (Well besides whatever it was that I was exposed to when I was about 2 yo that caused me to brake out in hives...) I hadn't eaten anything out of the ordinary or been around anything. I hadn't changed my detergent or soap or anything like that. And whatever it was, didn't seem to effect me when I put it in my mouth.

They had gotten me back to a room fairly quickly. They took about 3 vials of blood, a urine sample, gave me some Benadryl and started me on an IV w/Predisone. I felt so bad for Josiah having to sit there in an uncomfortable chair, while I laid there and dozed for a bit. After about 5 hours they came and unhooked me, told me not to do whatever it was that I had done, and sent me home.

Our biggest concern in all this was that I was about 5 weeks pregnant. This of course was not the way I had intended on telling everyone. When we first found out, we decided to wait to tell anyone, atleast for a few weeks. I found out really early compared to all my other pregnancies and we just felt that waiting to mention it was the best idea. Well, after my whole experience Sunday night, I started bleeding Monday morning. I was very concerned so I called my OB and they suggested I go down to the lab so they could draw blood, to determine if the blood count was high enough for an ultrasound, just to make sure everything was ok. So we did that. Then of course we had to wait until Tuesday morning for the results which did confirm pregnancy but the count was only 1600 something or other and for an ultrasound it needs to be around 3000. As long as everything was ok, it should double within 48 hours and then I could go in for the ultrasound. So they had me go back in on Wednesday to have more blood drawn. I was very nervous/anxious for them to call Thursday. Almost to the point that I was getting that sick feeling in my stomache. I started figuring..."no news is good news"....but that still didn't comfort me much. I called them around 12:30 but they were closed from noon til 2 for lunch. Well I got tired of sitting around so I took my boys to Leslie's and ran to the store to pick up a couple things. Of course they'd call during that time and they didn't have my cell #. I called them back, gave them my cell and then had to wait for the nurse practitioner to get back with me. I went to pick up my boys and while there she called my cell. The count had gone from 1600 down to 300 which meant I had miscarried. I was able to hold back the tears while I was on the phone but not for much longer. I think I was for the most part prepared to hear that that was the result, but it was still a little upsetting. I mean, 5 weeks isn't THAT far into it and there's really not much developed, but I'd been waiting since September-ish and was so excited when the test finally came up positive. They had me go back in today for more blood, just to make sure everything is flushing out on it's own, and then they want me to go in to see the doctor next Thursday for a follow up. I'd rather just skip that, but I realize it's probably for the better and I do have a couple questions that I'd like to ask him, so I'll go.

So I'm grateful that I've been blessed with the 4 beautiful children that I do have. Heavenly Father knows what we can handle. Maybe one more child is not in store for me. Maybe He just knows that one more child born in December is not something that I can handle. I WAS dreading that little fact. I'd really prefer another Spring baby. Fortunately, Spring comes shortly after December...atleast in Arizona.

So that's been my week. Now my girls want to go to their little school carnival which I'm dreading, after the experience of last years. I convinced them to do some cleaning though to earn what? Tell them I was just kidding?

Hope everyone has a great weekend!


Leslie said...

I never know what to say to people when things like this happen. However, I am truly sorry that this had to happen to you. I think I wanted this for you almost as much as you did. I have been praying for you, and Heavnly Father must know something that we don't know.

Don't give up though. I am always here to talk to...drop your kids off you make Chicken noodle soup...make crafts or whatever. I know I may not always be the best company but I will try to be better.

YogaNana said...

Ah, Sweeties, I'm sorry! I know it's sad and it's hard -- I lost six pregnancies right around that stage, one right before Josiah. So, you know, there may yet be other wonderful kids in store. So to speak. :o)

Do go see the doctor for the follow-up, just to clear your mind and get your questions answered.


Jeremy said...

Well that stinks... after running over to stay with your kids Sunday Night while you guys went to the Hospital I was sure everything was gonna be allright... and I guess you are ok and not hospitalized with some strange affliction... instead you get to be home with your affliction... I mean Josiah... err the kids.... i mean .. um... nevermind...

So, I am sorry to hear this sis... I am still more than happy to come over in the middle of the night to help administer if ever you need.

music lady said...

What a sad thing to happen to you! I know this is very hard to go through. Just "trust in the Lord with all your heart" and He will bless you.

Jenna Consolo said...

Sarah! Poor girl! What bizarre symptoms to have. I wonder what in the world that was! I am so sorry this pregnancy was not to be. We moms get attached right away, so feel sad if you want to! I am delighted that you guys are trying for more! And I know that you'll be blessed in the very near future! Love you!

Toons said...

Nothing can really comfort at times like this except that we have the truth and know that the Lord knows what's best. Love your kids and enjoy them! Blessings!!

Hannah said...

Aww I'm so sorry Sarah. I didn't even know you guys were trying for more kids. Don't take this as a sign that you're not supposed to have anymore. It could just be so that you will be able to cherish the one that comes even more because you'll be aware of how much of a miracle it is.

I'll be praying for strength for you and your family. You'll get through it and end up stronger.

Crazymamaof6 said...

HUGE BUMMER! that is so hard. and yeah you ahve 4 healthy great kids but it's so hard not to be disappointed. CRAP! sometimes your body needs a refresher course. and next time it will happen fine and all go smoothly. i hate having a miscarraige. NO FUN! i feel for you. thank heavens for supportive helpful family. way to look on the brightside that timing will be a little better next time maybe. HUGS FOR YOU!

Laurie M. said...

Oh, I am so sorry! I don't think it matters how far along you are- moms still get attached. That's part of being a mom. I hope you get to feeing better physically and emotionally. Take care!

miller care(y)t tops said... heart goes out to you! that is so sad and I don't think there's anything I can say to make you feel better- I just hope that you recooperate and can begin to feel well again. I really hope you can begin to feel good soon! Lots of love!!

Arnett said...

Sarah, I found your blog through Leslie's {which suddenly disappeared?}. Anyways, I am so sorry to hear about what happened. I know you wanted another little one, and hopefully it will happen if it's supposed to. A Spring baby does sound better than a December one. :) You're such a good, cute mom, and I enjoy teaching your sweet, talented girls! I hope you feel better!

P.S. Your Spring blocks are to die for! I love them!